What About Now ?!

Party on wed
3 vodka beer and tequila shots
Drunk and some happening stunts of course.
fuck it srsly.
wonder whats happening next.
Drop and to boat quay for martell and beer.
I stopped and home after there.
Fucking drunk and Mc on thursday because im fucking drunk.
Hangover and met yb for lunch
dinner with ivan shumin
Supper with tim berdine yb zx ivan ph wisely john
Slack at jurong ,
tml will be a better day i hope...
Bored bored bored.

Feeling superB wooots

The Broken Vows

Off day today
and i mass send people in my contacts for parties tonight
Finally a day for me to relax.
Hang out with Leong @ Parklane ytd with his colleagues.
Pool and off they go
me and leong decide to chill out at some bar @ boat quay
went over and sheesha with Heineken ...
Slack til 5 am and cab home.

I'm arent a heartbreaker
not a rule breaker
but a vows breaker
DAMN

Historica brain mekan

Work work work...
working in the afternoon shift.
relax but this week is packed again.
Going off to work again and wed is off day !
Sentosa or Rebel or Pula Ubin ?
chillz out
don't wanna talk so much
mum thought i was on drug
Chef don't allow me to claim off for holiday
that means my BKK trip is cancel again CB.

Back to hell .
tonight shall be the night

Back in times of childhood

Screw thess few days
hardly get to sleep
3 days back only sleep 5 hours
after work club and morning back to work
Fucking tiring...
Finally came home early today and sleep.
sleep 3.30 am and watch Vampire dairies.
going off for the last day of APEC !
finally it's ending
And new planning start again

The momendium of the blanks

Ok, now im stressing myself
crystal in my room cracked
headache until no tomorrow
MC for work again
What the fucking problem now!
Chef call, his sad from his voice...
and i keep giving excuses that i cant work
NICE. what the fuck is wrong with me...

Should i just fucking quit?
no more interested staying in conrad anymore.
Thought the people are nice warmy
but i have been giving myself too much excuses to avoid them
seriously, i was hoping that i could die now and end my parents misery.

I'm very scared of whats the outcome.
and really scared, how would tml be?
A new day a fresh start ?
Fuck it seriously ...

Just let it be ...
don't care bout'
destiny will presume me
where i go, where i stay
i wrote it myself

Monday bluessssss

Kick off with Monday resting at home was real bad.
6 or more continuous days i gonna work
and i cant move myself out for parties.
Probably will be busy this whole week for APEC.
I thought i could enjoy food with anyone today .
But seems like no one is up for it.
In the past, i felt so easy because
wherever i eat my meals, i don't feel lonely.
Thought now there were more people to
share my table with ... but still not happy as before.
Yea , they bring me laughter,joys or the so called happy moments.
But i still think a table for 2 would just be nice for me to dine with.

So much of things to say or mumble about.
but who really give a damn .
This is life, you choose for your rights.
Do what you love to do .
Don't let what others thoughts to destroy the dreams.
It can be beautiful and free when we were in the line of single
But it can never be as sweet or pretty compare to a pair.

It pass more than a quarter of 1 year
I can actually feel what is happening.
My answer cant be very accurate
but i'm at least 60 % sure that
somethings between still going thru both of our heads.
Don't believe me and check out with old friends
set at some seaside, have a relax chat
Im pretty sure, it can help you best.
Stay clam and resolve problems with them.

Home left me with the most memories.
Be it with family or whoever
Home is where i build my love for.

House party @ PH house

Woke up and giant supermart for ingredients.
Over PH house for Party/steamboat...
Tomyam soup base for the night
balls all around
pork ball(local & Taiwan),Chicken ball,Mushroom ball,
Cuttlefish ball,Prawn ball,Beef ball,Fish ball...
Is like so much of balls we are eating for the steamboat LOL...
Songs,Cards,Drinks,Noise
Did you miss this party hahaha ....
Relax chilling until 6+ clear the place and home.
Bathe, out i am using this screwed lappy.

Giving it a thought,im still missing the lost haha
But fuck it, now i just wanna drop dead with alcohol daily.
It's so addictive... nice yet harmful haha.
For no reason why am i thinking so much ...
It's gone, and i doubt its coming back too.
So let me fuck around with my party peeps.

Should i defer my course?
i'm like super lost in somewhere
and no feel for work now.
Army and clear it off for 2 years and continue back for attachment
Hotel line's sucks big time
Super fuck up...
Any job that i can work 3 days per week and have 4 days rest ?

Drink driving is very bad.
Should i go take my car or motor license?
or should i just drive without it?
Traveling in own transport is much more faster and efficient.

I'm so sensitive yet immune to all the incoming spikes
couldn't be bothered to care bout what others are saying
seems like it happened 2 days back and ended yesterday
kinda a stile stun happened within seconds
thought it might seems nothing but it can accumulate for amounts

I don't regret this life that i chose for me
Thats why i'm still staying at home
Because the love there is always enough for me
althought the places and the faces are getting old.

Finally got my new passport.
i should start planning for overseas trip.

16-21 DEC 09 - Bangkok Trip with Jon C
Jan 2010 - Genting, KL - Kampong Kias
June 2010 - Taiwan - 10 days trip with PH crews
September 2010 before enlistment for army - Some nice island to chill out..